“Good to know I am not alone.”“I struggle with this as well.”
“Just a good ol’ slap to the back of the head. That would do it, I think.”
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She place her hands into her pockets easily. “How are you doing?” Haruka didn’t want to risk bringing it up but wouldn’t press if need be.
Damn. She was finally feeling better, did she have to be honest and talk about her feelings again? This was getting exhausting.
“I did have a hard week…” She started looking away, back to her books. “I am better now.”
Haruka nodded and looked away, still preoccupied with her own thoughts. “Good. I’m glad.
It was nice to see you all together.”
Bringing up her fallout with Nariaki and Jadeite seemed out of question now that Haruka seemed quite distracted.
“Is there something bothering you?”
She paused, thinking about how she should answer that. It just didn’t feel right to let it go…but it still felt awkward talking about it too.
“…I went boxing with Taiki late the other night.”
“Oh?” She looked straight at Haruka’s green eyes. “Was it not good?
“Good’ isn’t the word I would chose, I guess.” She looked away and busied herself with that stubborn piece of hair that always stuck up somewhat. “She was cool about it, but I might have cracked a rib of hers. But she nearly broke my jaw so I think we’re even.”
Minako blushed a little bit at her and winked. “You look wonderful,dear. ” Minako went to her closet and pulled out an orange sun dress,grinning. “Turn around so i cam change,Haruka.”
Haruka smiled gently at the blush. “Thank you, Mistress.”
The orange was a lovely color and Haruka couldn’t wait to see it on her Mistress. It would seem to suit her well. “Of course.” She turned and started to put on a watch.
Minako hummed and took off her current clothing and placed on the orange dress, twirling a little infront of her mirror. “There we go! What do you think, Haru-chan?” She asked, her eyes beaming brightly as she looked at the racer.
Haruka blushed while fidgeting with her watch. She was changing right in front of her. This simple fact wouldn’t embarrass her except for the fact that this was her mistress now.
She turned and stared at her for a few quiet moments. “It suits you well, Mistress. It’s a nice color.”
She place her hands into her pockets easily. “How are you doing?” Haruka didn’t want to risk bringing it up but wouldn’t press if need be.
Damn. She was finally feeling better, did she have to be honest and talk about her feelings again? This was getting exhausting.
“I did have a hard week…” She started looking away, back to her books. “I am better now.”
Haruka nodded and looked away, still preoccupied with her own thoughts. “Good. I’m glad.
It was nice to see you all together.”
Bringing up her fallout with Nariaki and Jadeite seemed out of question now that Haruka seemed quite distracted.
“Is there something bothering you?”
She paused, thinking about how she should answer that. It just didn’t feel right to let it go…but it still felt awkward talking about it too.
“…I went boxing with Taiki late the other night.”
Haruka looked away when Usagi blew her nose, more so out of privacy and to try not to laugh softly. Even doing something like that, the girl just had a way of making it seem cute somehow.
“Yeah well, I was planning on being alone in her apartment with her either.” The racer still didn’t like seeing Seiya so low and down on herself. In her mind, that wasn’t Seiya. The annoying, flirting idiot was the one she remembered. It was any wonder that Haruka didn’t kill her that night but instead stayed with her until her roommate, Hikari, came home. “She wasn’t planning on telling me.”
A hand went to her jaw as she leaned on it while trying to think out her thoughts. “…Of that. Of you. What you did.” It didn’t make any sort of sense and Haruka could feel the beginnings of a headache. But they weren’t lies. “Of what you were able to do.” Then the feeling of anger arose her in again. She looked down. “You were able to…do that…Were you happy?” She looked up into her eyes again when she asked the question. “That week. Were you happy?”
Usagi wasn’t sure how she should feel about that. Seiya had been so disconnected since she ended what they had, and knowing that it somehow turned into a fight between her and Haruka…it didn’t sit well inside of her stomach.
She leaned back, surprised, when Haruka continued, However, as she heard the emotion rising in her voice, she shrank in her seat. Haruka has a temper that reminded her of her father, almost. She was scary when she was mad! As Haruka asked that question, she pursed her lips at first, thinking of her answer.
Letting out a sigh, she locked eyes with the older senshi. “I think…for those few times we had together…I was. When I was with Seiya like that, I could forget everything else. And I was happy that I could do that with her. But…when she and I were apart, I felt awful. I felt like scum, and as much as I had wanted to have that carefree, normal life that Seiya proposed to me…I knew I couldn’t take it.” Chewing on the inside of her cheek, she glanced away.
“As much as I despise it sometimes, I know what my destiny is. I can’t hide from it. But it was nice to have a few minutes where it didn’t apply to me.”
Haruka broke the eye contact. Seiya made her…happy. The thought of being her own person made her feel good. Their drinks and food arrived in silence and Haruka busied herself in adding sugar cubes to her cup of coffee, pushing the slice of cake away. They probably did whatever they wanted in that week. They laughed, they smiled, they had fun. Anything and everything. The thought of Seiya being so close to her Koneko-chan was taxing, but Haruka pushed that aside. That wasn’t important. The important thing now was what Haruka was going to do about it. Uranus already knew. Usagi needs to stay away from Seiya. Seiya away from Usagi. Done.
But Haruka had wanted that. She wanted to do those sorts of things too. Go wherever she wanted, do whatever she pleased. To not have to worry about responsibility or duty or anything. That was the life she gave up. This was the life she lived now. But here she was giving all of that up and here was Usagi doing that in her place. “Yeah, I bet it was.” She said almost bitterly.
It wasn’t fair. But that wasn’t Haruka’s business anymore. Right?
“Look…I understand. The need to do something your own way. I get it.” Haruka struggled to stay focused instead of giving into her own selfish desires. “But if you’re feeling so trapped…then why haven’t you talked to someone? Seiya’s…Seiya. But you shouldn’t feel alone.”
